To The Man Who Will One Day Fall in Love with Me
Lot of introspection and reflection recently. 25 has been a very good year to me so far. It’s given me many new opportunities and has challenged me to decide what I really want from work, friendships and love. I’ve thought about writing a post like this before and today finally felt like the day.
Hello, Man Who Will One Day Fall in Love with Me,
I know you are out there whether or not I have met you yet and I figured there are some things you should be prepared for:
My standards are very, very high and you can thank my dad for that. I grew up getting flowers on the first and last day of each school year. Once I graduated, I got flowers on the first day of my new jobs (that includes my Disney College Program internship in Florida and the Westin). When my dad could no longer get flowers delivered to my work (because my apartment is iffy on deliveries) I got a card and gift card to celebrate. I missed a flower delivery today and quite honestly I have no idea why my dad is sending me flowers now. I can report back tomorrow. But thanks, Padre.
I will have breakdowns and be depressed and anxious for a few hours for no reason. It just overcomes me. It has gotten a lot better over the years and I am much better handling the impulses and bad thoughts but I will still freak out and say I don’t deserve you or the great life I have. I will cry and shut down but at the same time I will just share every crazy thought that is running through my mind.
I am very passionate. When I love, I love with my whole heart. Need examples? Ed Sheeran. London. Sadness. Camden. I will want to share the things I love with you. I know it can be overwhelming and I know that it is weird to some people but that is how I am. I’ve been incredibly passionate about certain things since elementary school.
If you lose my trust it will take a while to get it back. I don’t mean if you cheat on me. Because if you cheat on me then I don’t want you. I mean if you make a promise and break it I will be crushed. I don’t take plans lightly and I do not handle cancelled plans well. It takes a lot for me to want to spend time with someone and I will be crushed when you cancel. It might not seem like a big deal to you, but it is a big deal to me. Quality Time is one of my love languages so messing with that really messes with my heart.
I love hugs. There is nothing better than a comforting hug where I can exhale deeply and feel safe. My other love language is Physical Contact so if you don’t like to be touched then you won’t love me.
I know what I deserve and I won’t settle. I think this one ties back to having high standards. I know that I’m really great. I’m strong and independent. I’ve done a lot in my 25 years. I’ve traveled alone and have friends all over the world. I won’t settle for someone that doesn’t support and encourage me.
I will love you with my whole heart. And this ties back to me being very passionate. If you light a fire in me it won’t be easily extinguished. I will have your back through almost anything and I will support you even if I don’t understand what you are going through. I will be inspired by the person you are and I will openly asked to be challenged by you. I will ride the ups and downs and I won’t give up.
I don’t think that love is something to take lightly. I know I’ve loved before but they were the wrong loves. Or they were the kind of love I was supposed to experience before finding the man who will love me back. I’m 25. I’m a badass. And I want someone to be at my side cheering me on but only if they know what they are getting into.
All my love, Natalie
